Big Plans... Baby Steps...

Like the title says -- BIG plans, yep, I've got lots of big plans.  BUT, I am taking tiny little baby steps.  Here's why - You might not know this about me, but I suffer from anxiety, bad.  I'm okay in my little world, doing my normal little things that I'm accustom to.  Like going to guild -- it's fine, I'm happy, I talk, I make noise (sometimes too much), I can talk while doing show and tell -- I didn't used to, but got better at it -- that's one of my big things, talking in front of groups.  I'm slowly getting better at talking in front of groups, and the ADD doesn't really help, sometimes I need people to keep me focused and on track because before you know it I'll be discussing laundry and grocery lists instead of quilting -- or worse, I'll just stop in the middle of a sentence and be done with that thought, not because I forgot, but because a new better thought jumped in front.  Those of you that know me are shaking your heads up and down right now, because it is true -- I'm like the absent-minded idiot sometimes!

Some of you that have followed me for a while even know I don't like talking on my videos... I've gotten better at that too!  Here's one quickly explaining the path I travel while doing stitch-in-the-ditch on a double wedding ring quilt:

Not too bad huh?  I talked, yeah, I may have repeated the same thing, but it was kind of the point to show you the travelling path.

All this is leading up to one of the BIG plans... teaching and possibly some instructional videos.

Ahhhhh, did I really just say that? YES.  I'll be starting small, teaching some wonderful local peeps so that I'm better prepared for all you other quilties out there!  I also have to take some time to work on actual classes, outlines, etc.  And time is the key word here, I don't have much extra time to go around so I'll be sleeping even less than now!  Seriously, I don't want to jump into this only to fail.  I'm not like that.  I have to know everything possible, all the ins-outs, loops, pitfalls, everything!  Nor do I want to disappoint any of you.  I know some of you have waited a while for me to finally get out of my own way and do this!  Yes, I need to put all my anxieties, worries, doubts, concerns, and *little voices* away and just do this -- but slowly!

So here's a peek into the second part of that video:

So all my fears and worries about teaching are probably just in my own head.  We're all human, we all have faults, issues, inadequacies, and well, stuff -- it's what makes us real.  So I guess if I can deal with all my *stuff* maybe you guys can deal with it too!

I'll keep you all in-the-know and up-to-date on when the teaching will start.  In the meantime, my locals peeps, let me know if you're still interested and I'll work something up!

Oh, and a big shout-out to my friends who have dealt with my fears and crazies in getting to this point!  I love you all dearly!